Prideful Me

I know a kid who struggles with apology. She can take a whole day just to say the word “sorry” and it often leave me in desperation and a ton of whys, but when I was living the married life, I, too, struggle with apology. I often grieve the Spirit and not bend in apology and swallow my pride. I am blessed, however, that my husband is very giving. He often pursues me and say sorry, even if he is not at fault, but I really want to improve on this attribute. I know I needed to, first to walk the talk, to become a good role model to my son and to put on the same to others.

I believe in my heart that God knows that I am struggling with pride, in general. I am selfish and often think first of my convenience, my joy, my best and how to elevate myself over others. Sadly, I often want to take more than I want to give, and this isn’t God’s design, especially, for relationships. Don’t get me wrong, I do not discount the fact that it is very okay to think of our self, but there is a thick line between this and being selfish.

I acknowledge that I am still a work in progress, and I know too, that His strength will be made perfect in my weakness. His grace will be abundant to do every good work.

As CS Lewis said, humility is not thinking less of yourself, it is thinking of yourself less.